Are We ThEAR Yet?

As June 30th looms over my my head, getting closer and closer each day I can't help but feel a sense of dread instead of excitement. There is so much left to be done before then and the closer the date looms is the more that goal of finishing everything before then feels insurmountable. And, it doesn't help that today is such a gloomy day. I've always said that I'm powered by the sun and so on days like today it is really hard to stay motivated and just keep going. That's a nice song by Tobi Lou by the way: Just keep Going, but I digress, I've literally been sitting at my desk all day long and I've only managed to accomplish making one pair of earrings. The downside is because I used glitter on a portion of them and now they are now unsellable as glitter, a microplastic, is incredibly harmful to the body and the environment and the last thing I am trying to do is harm someone or the nature around me that I hold so dear.

And I am not depressed or anything--not really but I am feeling a slight weight of this enterprise and I haven't even started yet. I am still essentially in the planning and preparation phase and while it is not as loud as it used to be, there is a tiny, quiet whisper in mind that prevails, cautioning me, warning me that I might not be able to keep up once I truly get going in June should I manage to accomplish everything....

But you know what......SCREW THAT VOICE!!!!!! LOL!! I have to shut this feelings down now before it snowballs into something worse that will be even harder to defeat. I can do this in fact I am doing this. Even though this process is slow and often lonely, it will pay off in the end. Besides I love this stuff: making, creating, designing, sharing the final product with others, and seeing their smiles and happiness. But, it is a process, especially when having to sit down and face yourself and faceyour mind each time you work. But I refuse to get in my own way. No, not anymore, and so thank you bloggy for being here to give me a moment to air out and get back to work.

It's 1:00pm now so the day is relatively young and while time waits for no one I'd like to be optimistic in saying that time is still on my side. I can still buckle down for the day and if nothing else complete two pairs of earrings to add to my inventory. Ten pairs for each design is the goal, but we can work up to that slowly. It's okay Naj, it's okay breathe, be patient, give yourself some grace, have some faith, and give yourself a little credit here. You'll be fine, you're doing fine, and to answer the question that titles this post, I'm getting there step by step and day by day another great song by the way sung by the one and only Whitney Houston. Let's go listen to that one shall we? As I gently nudge myself into full throttle!

Update: So it's Saturday April 12th and while I'm still a pair down, I got this accomplished! I made a stamp to brand my design, and I finished these up. It's still a little tough today, I get really down sometimes, sometimes out of no where, and when I'm like that it's really hard to get going and to celebrate these small wins. But here I am anyway going against that tide and celebrating how nice this looks and how things are coming along. And, did I mention that all of the earrings cards are all diy?! Also, since I have yet to find a corner cutter that I can purchase from a company whose ethics align with my own, I just rounded the corners myself! And I know all of this might sound a little cocky but you know what let's dance let's shout shake our bodies down to the ground! HEHEE! We're celebrating ourselves out here!

And! To continue riding the train of positivity the second set of earrings is almost done! So I'm almost close to hitting my goal for the day!